it might just all be a facade

Thursday, July 19, 2007;

♥ 7/19/2007 08:00:00 AM

It's the hardest thing i'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i dont love you>>

Hello earthlings. (:
I literally 'rush-ed' thru my sat and sun. ):
I woke up at bout 7 in the morning on sat, and went down to yewtee to meet chanel, who was late! :D Then we made our way down to ri. We were already the late, and the size and confusing directions of the school wasnt of much help either. =l
So, i was under admin/stage stewardess. Haswani ma'am and i were like , oh noo! Now go up stage isit? ... :D
Okay, few hiccups here and there, and its my first time takin up stage stewardess position! Ha, but still, experience gained! :D
After the ceremony, Haswani maam and i rushed to change out of the uniform and we were off to the mrt station!
I rushed down to bb mrt, to get smth from sarahrahrah before rushing home to bathe and stuff.
Next, i rushed (again) down to school for OD. I rushed down there just to hear, the gathering time was 8plus. UGHHH. ):
Bummer.
Anyways, OD was alright. Other than the ridiculous fact that practically all the 'sai-kang' workload was on 07S07. ):
Some of us completed that fifty laps thruout the night and din sleep. Haha! When our duty at the registration booth and everything started, all of us were falling asleep. :D
We all left at 9 plus, Beeping huifang weelat bryan and i went BK at TP HUB for lunch. I was so freaking sleepy! I finished my burger in record time and fell sound asleep on the table. And in front of me is stupid bryan whos ever ready to play that stupid game with me. Haha!
Retard.
Reached home at 12plus. Bathed and unpacked. Slept til 5. :D
And the next day, it's a monday and we had school again!
So horrible! In other words, im having school for a continuous 12 twelve days!

On tues, my class was having this really interesting discussion during GP.
And we were posted this question by the tutor, 'Are you happy with your present life?'
Oh my G, definitely not. ):
I made this on the way home that day.

"On this lonely bus ride home,

With myself, on my very own.

I cant help but stop to ponder,

Why doesnt my life have any wonder?

I detest my present life.

Oh please, someone, get me a knife.

Oh god, end all this shit.

My life; i so hate it.

Everything's breaking apart i swear,

And my heart, it's starting to tear.

All my tears caught no attention,

Im now, in a state of confusion.

Emo; i know thats how i sound,

But hey, thats because i was never found.

Abandoned and left behind i was,

The hope given to me were all false.

In my life, 'youre' all i lack,

and i just want, my old life back."

When my hands are tied

and my heart's not free;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.